Hey. So I’ve been really neglecting my blog recently and I’ve finally found a little bit of time to explain to you all why. The reason is simple. Everything is awesome.
2021 has been my year for sure and I’m so ridiculously happy and simultaneously super scared I’m gonna jinx it and it would all go away just like that.
I’m not used to things going well. I’m really good at adapting to the crappy situation and making the best of them but this pure bliss I’ve been living is scary as hell and I’m still getting used to it.
Let’s start with my work life.
You might be familiar with my profession already – I’m a pharmacist assistant (the lady that sells you OTC drugs in Europe) and I’ve been doing this for almost 3 years now.
So when my boss approached me in January with a promotion I was ready.
I’ve been head pharmacist assistant of my own pharmacy for almost a year but now I’ve got a chance to be the head pharmacist of 5 pharmacies altogether aka more responsibility and more people to manage. She offered me a time to think about it but I said yes right away and the fun begun.
Since that decision was made I switch into boss mode.
I’ve been visiting each of my pharmacies constantly, communicating with everyone even more than before, hopping on teams meeting, and generally trying to get my girls to respect me as an authority and helping with everything I can.
I knew all of the pharmacists from each pharmacy cuz I was helping them all out before and taking extra shifts whenever they needed. Speaking of I’ve taken so many extra shifts this March it was ridiculous. I’ve literally been going to work and home to shower and sleep and the same went for the weekends. My flat was a mess. I was running out of clean clothes to wear as I had no time to do the washing. But I did feel helpful and now I know my girls know they can count on me.
I was exhausted but it was a good kind of exhaustion, the one when you know you did your best.
I had little doubts about taking the position of whether the older pharmacist would accept me as their superior. How can I, a 25-year-old be bossing around someone my mum’s age or someone who has children older than I am? Turns out those ladies are the easiest to work with as their respect is built on what you know and not how old you are. On the other hand, the girls that know me the longest are the hardest to manage, but I’m working on it. It’s been such an exciting month for me full of new stuff and I had zero time to sit down and write something for my blog so my apologies.
I’m in a state of high functioning anxiety when you just keep going and going and going.
Even on my days off, I feel like I’m missing something I should be doing and I’m having a hard time relaxing. I know it sounds bad but bear with me, I’m well aware that’s not the way to do this, but I’m new and I’m learning to manage not only my people but myself.
My plants are doing great if you’ve been wondering. I’ve managed to kill some of them due to overwatering but most of them are going strong and they keep expanding their numbers.
Let’s move to my love life.
Often times before I mentioned I’m not really a fan of sharing my love life with anyone, not friends not family. It’s something so personal for me I just don’t want to share anything and burst my perfect little bubble. It’s just The things I don’t talk about.
But man oh man. My new man.
It’s really hard not to talk about how awesome he is and how happy he makes me but I’m gonna keep him as my secret a little bit longer.
For now, just know I’ve never felt so seen and appreciated as I am now and he made me wonder, how on earth could I ever think any of my previous guys were good to me.
So in conclusion, I’m really happy and I’m anxiously waiting for shit to go down and burst my happy bubble. Hope it never comes to that again and I hope you’re feeling good as well.