Hey. January is over and honestly what the fuck was that. I never ever had a month like that. So let’s sum up why I’ll never forget January 19 and I don’t mean it in a positive way.
You might remember my first 12 days of 2019 and my article called 2019 is the worst and it’s been just 12 days and might be wondering how did my rest of the month go.
Well, it’s one thing to get an ultimatum from your former best friend to leave your shared apartment as soon as possible. But the possibility doesn’t come right away and you are left living with a person who wishes you’re gone it’s not pretty trust me. I have trouble sleeping knowing she’s right in the next room. Knowing she dropped this well-planed bomb on me. It just makes me so angry I can’t even look at her.
But the feeling is mutual as she can’t look at me either for still living in our apartment. It’s truly horrible and the funniest part is that she claimed that she was unhappy since the beginning when we were actually talking, sharing our days, cooking together, watching movies, and just hanging out. Well, we’re both unhappy now so goal achieved.
I spend hours a day searching for a new place to live. Countless time on the phone talking to reality officers. Traveling all over Prague to meetings and check new places and getting declined over and over again.
I keep blaming my roommate for the mess that my life is. But I can’t help to blame myself as well.
I chose to live with her. I was the one who trusted her. And that was a pretty big mistake as I’m founding out just now.
But on the other hand, I’m glad she made her choice and got out of my life now. Should have considered it sooner.
We have known each other since we were like 7 so this shit sucks.
I had my birthday in January as you might find out from my Turning 23 post.
The older you get the sadder your birthdays become. Not talking about getting older as it is but I found myself spending my birthdays quite alone lately. I moved from my hometown a while ago so I don’t get to spend it with my family. But at least I had some friends to celebrate with. But now I’m stuck sharing a home with a person who can’t even say simple happy birthday to me so that’s that.
I did spend my special day with a friend who took me to Waf-waf Prague and we had a very lovely time and all of your birthday wishes made my day much better. Despite the shadow of recent turning events of my life. A constant reminder that I’m in a pretty sticky situation. No money, no place to live, and betrayed by my best friend.
January felt like a year. And when you live with a roommate who ignores you and the only words you get from each other are Facebook messages that go like “when are you leaving?” “When are you getting me my money?” it’s not a good year.
So let me say I’m glad it’s over and February already feels better.
But hey everything would be better than that January.
It’s been just 1st February and I had just attended another apartment showing of an incredible place. I couldn’t even be allowed myself to wish for it. But now I got a message that the homeowner choose me as her new lessee.
I’ll still spend one more month with my “friend”. At least I have a hopeful thought of leaving in my mind and I’ll hold onto that for dear life.
Thank you for your attention